Thoughts Race

Yet another sleepless night.
I ponder the hiccups of my life.
Where am I going?
What is the reason I am in this place?
I long for a physical touch
Yet I'm left with nothing
Just my bed full of pillows
A charcoal version of myself
Staring back at me
I've reached my wits end
Yet in all the chaos that is my thoughts
I find inspiration to create something beautiful
Tonights sleepless masterpeice...


LOVE is the answer

Lord you are so amazing! I wish there were words that I could say that could express how I feel about the Lord. This evening has been pretty interesting. Left for bible study at 6 and didn't get home till 2:30am. Why did I get home so late?- because God loves his lost sheep too much to leave him lost. Man all that can be said is hallelujah! I'm tired - wait and see what God does- just wait... I'm excited!!!

Love is the most amazing thing known to man. God IS love. Love is powerful. God is all powerful. Love is the answer. Love will find a way.



My roommate had a dream that someone got shot on my birthday. Interesting...
My birthday at home sucked...
Something that day died.
I did.
My ability to keep pretending nothing is wrong
My ability to sit back and remain quiet
The fear of what will happen when I say what I have to say

Do I know what is about to happen... of course not. If I knew what came next I wouldn't have to trust that God has my life under control.

As crazy and messed up and frustrating and ridiculous as things get - its all a part of the plan. I have to believe it. It has to be true. It has to be.


This is the beginning of the rest of my life. It began Sept 28, 2008 when I turned 22 and saw the direction in which my family and my life was going and decided something had to be done. Change is gonna come. Change IS going to come.