I have come to the conclusion that this is not about me. THIS [as in most of the mess I am in] is a result of the mess my family has brought upon themselves and I, my fathers first born child, am caught in the crossfire. We, the children, are reaping the fruits of their labor. My brother, intercepted something that was meant for my mother. My immediate family and I are suffering because of the unwise decisions my father continues to make.
I can continue to be sad, depressed, upset, frustrated, and complain. However, complaining brings forth no change. Complaining will not uproot the devil from my house. It will only make me sick, and keep that cycle of depression and frustration spinning.
Therefore, it is time that I stop being a lil punk and put on the full armor of Christ. This is not a battle I can win in my own strength, BUT I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST JESUS WHO IS MY STRENGTH.
I think I'm beginning to understand what my dreams meant. I think I know what I have to do now. I can't remain quiet and fearful any longer. GOD HAS NOT GIVEN ME A SPIRIT OF FEAR BUT OF POWER, LOVE, AND A SOUND MIND.
I will say this - She will regret the day she ever decided to mess with my family. I have become angry, but not in the sense that you would think...
NOW IS THE TIME FOR THOSE WHO ARE SERIOUS ABOUT THE LORD TO STEP UP TO THE FRONT LINES - IF YOU'RE NOT READY TO BLEED, WHY ARE YOU HERE?
I'm back! It's been a while since I've actually had a blog. I've "blogged" on my myspace and "posted notes" on my facebook, but this - this is an actual blog. Haven't done this since high school when I had a deadjournal account. I wonder why people blog anyway. I guess people get some sort of satisfaction in knowing that there is someone out there who actually cares about their opinon - well cares enough to read it anyway. There are so many "invisible" people in this world, maybe blogging makes the invisible people that much more visible. I have read some pretty funny posts on the internet about many different things. This world is full of so many different views and opinions and its just interesting to see different perspectives. The problem with alot of people is they are so close-minded and feel that their way of thinking is the only way of thinking, but that is a discussion for another blog on another day. Right now its time to explore this blogspot some more, add my art (the reason I created this bad boy in the first place), and hit the sack - operation: "slim down / tone up" begins when the sun comes up and I need to be rested. Shalom Chaveriem. Lehitraot.